Timing - my rhythm for the spiritual path Timing is surfing the flow of my own path. It's following what is true for me now, even if that truth will later change. Timing is traveling at the speed I can take all of me
Tantra - the art of shared totality Tantra is the path to sharing everything (not with everyone/not all the time). It has three per-requisites. I want to know myself, I want to know you, and I want moments of shared reality
Vertical and horizontal awareness Vertical awareness is connecting to other dimensions, withdrawing awareness from "this world", to "see" through "me" (who am I?). Horizontal awareness is amplifying being in this dimension in order to "see" through "you" (who are you?)
Protective mechanisms - blocking aspects of reality We choose protective mechanisms when we can't leave and there's a consistent energetic "no win" in our present (mostly young child). To "resolve" this "no win" we disable an aspect of direct sensing and install a story instead
Slowing down - separate present seeing from past conclusions Mind moves quickly because it acts on what has been decided "in advance". Raw seeing moves slowly in order to touch/scan reality here and now. Most of our experiential reality comes form mind (meaning) and not from what we actually see (present)
The domain of "not knowing" Living and moving in the domain of "not knowing" - releasing the "I" control mechanisms, releasing the "I" and entering the domain of what is larger than "I"
The way out of "disorders" Me, relative to something, is where "disorder" exist. To know your being is not to "remove a disorder", but to remove the frame of reference in which the "disorder" exists.
What does it mean to express a want? How you handle wants in relating determines the direction it will go and the quality of the experience. Many relational battles happen simply because of a different perceptions of wants, independent of the want itself.
Are you present when you talk? Your expression of you being in words is not your being, but it does not have to come instead of your being either. When you are "there" while you speak it is simply.an added channel, a "simultaneous translation" of your being, into the spoken language
Codependent- removing colors that don't "agree" (white instead of color)
Independent- being a color (red instead of blue)
Dance- joining colors, forming a rainbow.
Real change - trees, ties and circles As long as you are "tied" you will repeat your experiences, going in "circles", like a sheep tied to a tree. To change is to question, and shift, the tie that creates your circle, not study the infinite "problems" of it.
Healing the past - breathing the "elephant" To heal the past, to really "change", requires three steps. To know that the pain I experience now does not exist now, to "trace" it back to where it did exist and to breathe with it until it is done.
Your own private balance Finding balance is a personal thing. Everyone is reacting to a different history (childhood, past lives) which sets them off-balance in a personal and specific way. The spiritual path is the art of making your own corrections to your own history.Finding balance is a personal thing. Everyone is reacting to a different history (childhood, past lives) which sets them off-balance in a personal and specific way. The spiritual path is the art of making your own corrections to your own history.
The art of being picky As we remove the mask/protection between what is inside and what is outside we have to replace it with being picky as to who we spend time with and how long. We return to the natural pickiness of children. It may seem like a judgment, but it's no more judgment than a bee choosing which flower to land on and how long to stay. It's simply a preference without need for reason - pickiness.
To be or to belong? The choice to be split The internal battle is between my being and my personality. To belong requires that I "forget" part of my being and wear a suit of personality, what I "should be", in order to play.
Acts of power vs. acts of explanation Acts of power are acts that happen outside the domain of explanation, they are not necessarily "forceful", they can be very small and externally insignificant, only they are an act not a re-act
The reality filter / interpretation / story When we filter what we say or hear we stop the direct sensing of life force and exchange it for a "good interpretation". Real intimacy requires that we remove those filters and resume direct knowing
Library of reality versus direct knowing When we see things directly we perceive, and the perception is direct. When we close our "energetic eyes" we must create a library to "compensate" for our "lost" direct perception, like a blind person creates a map of reality existing only in memory
Self pity - The game and resolution Self pity brings others into the "prison" of my past pain, the experience of "poor me", replaying and recreating a memory of powerlessness. As long as you are still in this prison there is value in it, and as long as you use it, you are still in prison. To reclaim power is to drop self pity and clear the story and memory of pain
The warmth between us Even total awareness of divine unity does not replace the warmth of personal awareness, of the "space between us". Having both spaces allows both a knowing of self and of others in a way that will honor both.
The power of anger Anger as a tool for self transformation - how to use and transform anger and not be a victim of it, nor make other pay for it
Internal Silence Internal silence is the removal of the vehicle of "me", the state of facing reality, as it is, without a filter. It's not better, only a doorway to the world of direct perception.
The practical and sober spiritual path The practical spiritual path does not depend on moments of realization, or happiness. It's a life oath you choose because the road calls you more than the "detours". To travel it requires a steadiness of determination, unbending intent, to keep going even as you are honor and process the scenery
Aloneness of perception Coming together through agreement of perception forms a community of agreement, and must exclude what does not agree. Coming together through the aloneness of perception is conscious community, letting go of pretending and exclusion.
The world of agreement and the world of will The video "Charlie bit my finger" is a great example of the interplay between the world of agreement (the older bother) and the world of will (charlie), The world of reaction and explanation and convincing, and the world of one way action and will.
Aloneness The more alone you are the more of your attention you can share with another.
A choice of reality Choosing the balance/volume of each aspect of your attention is what creates your world.
Sexuality and Spirituality Sexuality is like the waves in the ocean, does not conform to morality or thought, it simply exists, playing, dancing
Relative volume on the spiritual path It's not that a "flower" suddenly appears, but that attention that had been occupied with the loudness of "war", was released enough to see the subtlety of "flower"
Owning your knowing It's not enough to know things intellectually. Then it's only a belief. To claim it as a knowing you must know it as an experience
Don Juan and Carlos Castaneda Don Juan, through Castaneda's recording, opened up the secrets of the sorcerer's path to the general public. In the dance between them, they gave the world a gift, a most pragmatic and practical map to freedom
Relating Awake - the art of conscious relating Beyond ideas of right and wrong there's a field, I'll meet you there" - Rumi. The choice (and consequences) of playing in that field. Relating through presence, without thought. Intimacy, truth and openness with what is
Conscious / Awake Community The intent and requirements of forming an awake community, a group knowing. "It is possible that the next Buddha will not take the form of an individual., but the form of a conscious community -- a community practicing understanding and loving kindness, a community practicing mindful living" Thich Nhat Hanh.
The end of the path of wisdom Wisdom is preparation for the path of your own knowing, the path of personal power. Wisdom is the "map" but it is not the journey itself
Two types of memory Alive memory and empty memory. The process of reclaiming my attention from a memory - recapitulation
Living in the balance The middle way - accessing the totality of your being requires knowing each aspects and then balancing them all as a system
Reclaiming your power Giving up and reclaiming power. Exploring the locks and choices we made as children to "restrict" some aspect of our being, seeing how they play themselves out, and the path of reclaiming power.
Personal power - earning your spiritual truths Spiritual truths become real and tangible when you have the "personal power" to activate them.. Personal power is your energetic "budget", the awareness and attention free to see "what is" (rather than interpreting what is)